Tone Wars

What feels like a long time ago in a corner of the Internet far far away…

The Empire of Circumstance has brought down its hardest on our heroes and the Resistance. Only a few weeks into the new year and every skill, every strength has been tested…

The only thing that has linked the past few weeks together, other than endless work/class, is Star Wars. The original trilogy, the prequels, the original trilogy again, Force Awakens, Force Awakens YouTube videos, Clone Wars, John Williams soundtracks to both trilogies, and finally watching episodes IV, V, II, III, VI and VII in the *ahem* correct order…

Fill the air, lightsaber noises do. The Imperial March, we are always humming. Incoherent, unstructured and ineloquent this blog may be due to weakened mental battlements.

Aside: Obi is the best. Kylo is the best. Rey Kenobi better be a thing.

Yes yes, it’s capitalism and marketing, yes yes maybe if we cut out Star Wars and actually rested I wouldn’t be complaining as much as Luke and Anakin combined. We’re working on it.

But nothing says escape into a franchise like weariness and burn out. And we’re only two weeks in, with midterms growing on the horizon! Yay…

In any case, came upon this hour long video from four years ago about this extremely talented man:

Rewind to about an hour before I watched this. I had just finished dinner, set my timer for 30 minutes and collapsed onto my mattress.

Father, I am so weary. I don’t know what to think, I don’t know what to do, I have no idea what’s going to happen with anything. I know that everything’s going to be okay, that you’re going to work everything out… but how do I know that? Moses and the Israelites had wonders and a giant pillar of fire! I have… oh. I have the Bible. And apparently faith like a speck of dust if that’s not good enough…

And then I woke up. I kind of did some writing, read it over, rather unimpressed at what I’d come up with. Then hopped on YouTube and Facebook. Then kind of wrote some more. Then YouTube.

And watching that video… I had… fun. I didn’t realize it until he asked the audience. It must be worse than I thought if having fun was an unrecognizable concept. Maybe that’s why the writing sucked.

And then he adds that little anecdote at the end. How much I needed to hear that encouragement was no coincidence… it was my pillar of fire. The whole video was.

The past two weeks have been INSANE… I definitely have voices in my head, maybe not Tone Wars like his, but Mind Wars all the same. It’s so cluttered up there and maybe I should pay some attention to the thousand times I’ve heard the words “clear your mind.”

Dear me,

Stop worrying, stop fighting a battle that’s already won, and rely on Him. “The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent.” (Exodus 14:14)

God does not need you to be strong.